Fool on the Hill

Wow. I forgot how sad that song could make me. It was the 1st song that made me think of God and our separateness from Him. As a kid, I would experience intense moments of empathy which would in one way make me feel connected to people but at the same time make me feel disconnected and alone in the world. This song connected that empathy to God and made (and apparently still makes) me feel sad for Him. I remember as a kid wondering if I was weird because I thought of God as a lonely scraggly man sitting alone on hill. Weird or not, I use to envision myself walking up the hill toward Him, not saying a word, just quietly sitting right next to Him and watching the world with Him ,hoping he would feel less lonely

Weird is the wrong word. Wrong is the right one. I was afraid to tell anyone that I thought of God like that because I figured they'd say I was dead wrong to even think such a thing. 

I think there is an aspect of realizing our "as is" worth to God too. I think that more than thinking it was wrong to think of God as lonely was that I as a scrawny little kid with a broken front tooth could console Him. 

 As I've come to have a deeper relationship with Him, I've realized that, "that" is all He really wants; powerless misfit children who love Him enough climb a hill and sit with Him.